This post is all about new motherhood and baby blues
Being a mother to “Sia” really feels great. Seeing her smile makes me super happy but with new motherhood, there comes a ton of responsibilities. I must say it’s a proper full time job to take care of a new born and when I say full time job, it means it includes all your 24 hours and not just 9-5 routine of a job. Right from feeding the baby after every two hours, making her burp, breast pump, making her sleep, playing with her, changing nappies, oiling and massaging her, calming her down and make her bath and with that doing the household chores consumes me totally that I hardly get time for myself.
Even after doing all these tasks with the best of my abilities, I still feel worthless and hopeless these days. I feel, as if I have no control over my life.Yes, I have no shame in saying that I am facing baby blues and some kind of depression where there are days when I feel super low, sad, angry, cranky and irritated. And there are days when I feel good and happy. But the proportion of good days are really less, I must say that.
I think a lot of this feeling pops up because all of the sudden your life changes completely. You don’t get enough time to spend with your partner, you don’t get time to pamper yourself or to even socialise a little bit for a change of scene. And on the top of it, lockdown and the existing covid crisis is just an add on to all my build up frustration.
These days I am realising a lot that I am a kind of person who needs a lot of personal space. Doing my creative stuff like making content or writing blog makes me feel happy. I am missing that a lot. I think my creative work keeps me sane.
Not getting the time and space during the entire day for even one single hour is I feel the factor for all my problems, worries and anxiety that I am facing right now. One thing is for sure that I need to get back soon to a better state of mind because I know deep down it is affecting me both on a mental and physical level.
I am still in my recovery stage after my C-section delivery. My health has really gone for a toss totally after my delivery. I have constant back and neck pain after my delivery. I literally have lost all my stamina at this point of time. Doctor has advised me to start mild postpartum exercises after completing 6 weeks from my delivery date. I am desperately looking forward to starting some kind of exercise that helps me gain my stamina back slowly and steadily.
You must be thinking why I am writing all my problems and sharing with you all. Let me tell you that I am doing this because it feels great to write something and taking out time to share my state of mind with you all. I want to tell you guys that nobody is perfect and it is ok to feel certain way for sometime.
I know like me there are lot of other women who must have gone through such emotions or currently are in such state of mind. Ladies, I hear you all. We are together in this. We will fight this too strong and will come out of it in our own unique ways.
I just want to end my article with all the positive hope and belief that I have within me that “We as a women can fight our battles alone if we make our mind to become the best version of ourself. We have the power within us. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are not strong enough. Your current situation doesn’t define you, it is just a phase. Take your time and do what works best for you. Know that with your child’s care, your personal care is equally important. So, don’t miss out on that”.
Lots of love and hugs to all the super moms out there, know that you are AMAZING!
This post is all about new motherhood and baby blues.
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Amazing. It is absolutely ok to let your emotions come out. I am glad that your content is so natural and you are sharing it so other new moms can also know, that they are not alone.
Thank you so much Deep:) Thank you for taking out time and appreciating my work. Really means a lot!